Friday, December 31, 2010

Like the summer rain
Come and wash away my pain
Tada this is the end of fame,
I know I looked so lame,
Painting my face,
Like a member of the human race.
Let me not fall from grace
Lead me to my temptations
Kill my inclinations
Take me to watch the summer rain.
Wash away my pain
Into the drain
Reviving my life
Killing the strife.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

I always thought it would be perfect
Your flowers still live
Though we are dead
I saw the future,
So bright and clear.
Everything planned out in front of my eyes
Moving so quickly
I’ve seen our wedding,
I’ve seen our first child,
I’ve seen supposed perfection,
I’ve seen our retirements,
Seen our death
Seen forever
It made me so scared
I couldn’t tell you.
I don’t know if I love you.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Teardrops fall from my eye
Like raindrops from the sky.
Please tell me why
You walk away
Saying you'll be back someday
We both know it's a lie.
Like rhubarb pie
You were so bittersweet
Being without you isn't a treat.
You always thought you were so discreet
Oh, look there go your feet.
Now I feel so incomplete
Watching you leave.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

You scare me.
You can’t find yourself
All hallow’s eve has changed you.
You make me shudder and jump.
Music drives you away.
Me beautiful sleepy love.
I fear you love me not.
I fear you use me.
So absorbed in warmth,
Not handling aggression.

Monday, December 27, 2010

You say you're cryin inside
You wanna run and hide
Cuz someone hurt your pride
Your mom called you lame,
And said you're always to brave.
And she wonders why you never behave?
Well piss on her grave,
How dare she make you her slave.
And its okay to give him head
As long as he's your friend.
Will you be mad
When she says you the dad?
Oh no your bad
Is this a fad?
Or will you stay?
You wanted to play
Now's the time to pay
And you shouldn't complain.

Friday, December 24, 2010

The blood is on your hands
She's a flower in bloom
Despite the gloom
That fills this room.
Try to think but you can't
Her blood is on your hands
No more playing with the band
Oh how damned
She walked on the sand
The blood is on your hands
No longer in demand
Forever troll the land
The blood is on your hands.
She thought you were a fan
And now you’re not her man.
Only among the damned
Her blood is on your hands.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

When we walk hand in hand,
I walk with pride.
When your arm's around my
Shoulder I feel so secure.
Our lips together,
Nothing ever felt so right.
Our hearts beating so rapidly.
Nothing ever so perfect.
My mind soars to new plains
Did you know you're my perfect drug?
I can't seem to get enough.
I find myself as giddy as a schoolgirl.
Feeling so comfortable in every way.
I feel happy forever in your arms.
You have such a perfect charm.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

She whispers lightly in my ear
The words that take me
Not very far from here
Her voice carries me
Sweet and swift
Along a short channel
To the places
Where there's churning
And darkness breeds,
Tumult gathers
Malevolent she stirs
Word by word
Thought by thought
Vile sludge seeps through
And mixes new hues
Her gentle breath easy
Teasing with delight
Rousing a beast.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

To my mother

I've met a wonderful girl
The best in the world
But to you, this I can't say
Because to you it's not the right way
That it's evil that I'm gay
To you a bad choice
A crack in my voice
And I begin to cry
For with my love I must be shy
Like a secret I must hide
All the things I feel inside
The nights become long
Knowing you see me as wrong
Wishing you could understand
The way it feels when I hold her hand
That I can't share,
Fills me with despair
Not what you dreamed I'd be
Not what you'd like to see
Hand in hand with a boy
But me this would destroy
Mother, love me as I am.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

15 Minutes

A match is struck against the box.
The flame is hot and new,
Quickly it lights the room,
Touching all the darkness,
Bringing joy to all it graces.
Slowly burning down and wilting,
Touching less and less.
Darkness regains its reign,
Finally burning out.
So this is the end of fame.
So soon it came,
But now it's gone,
And they don't know my name.
Why does it always have to be the same?
So soon it came,
And now this is the end of fame,
Dieing like a lonely flame,
Without fuel to keep its spark,
Everything remains dark.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Strawberries

The Strawberry incense that
        You burned for me when we made
        Love,
It still lines my nostrils, whenever
        I inhale I can sense your presence
Surrounding me,
When I look through these frozen panes,
        Down that snow-covered lane,
        The chilling wind robbing me of something
        I have kept deep within myself.
No one can take my memories of you.
        I will always be able to smell the
        Strawberries you gave to me.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Thunderstorm

The lightning cracklesAnd crudely grumbles.The children shudder. 

  

 

Cherry Blossoms

The wind blows gentlySmall, pink, cherry blossoms swayBranches speak your name.




Lilacs

Lilacs I can’t wait
Your beautiful blooming face
Purple smells of wonder.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Happiness is intangible
You can't rely on someone else
Because people aren't perfect
They will let you down
And if you're finding your happiness
Within someone else,
You will find disappointment
You can't depend on circumstances
Because they are beyond your control
They change constantly
And are dependent upon many things
Other than an end result of
Personal satisfaction of your desire
Happiness can come from without
From people, from circumstances,
But sustainable, true happiness
Has but one source,
And it comes from within
It cannot be found, or relied upon
If your reliance for happiness
Lies externally,
You won't be able to focus
On those things internal
But when you do come to
Being able to accept internal happiness
Those things without
That once gave superficial joy
Are now more valuable 

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Her judgment falls
Heavy on my shoulders
I wipe it off
Like the putrid filth it is
Eyes looking me up and down
Critiquing my every breath
Burning me alive
Now I'm refined
And you can see all of me
True form
Is it good enough?
Is it all you hoped it would be?
It's just me
I'm baring open to you
But who are you?
What do you know?

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Ferocious and fierce they fracture.
Ridiculous rationales for rape and risk.
Attacking all that's abundant and available
Claiming collateral isn't condoned.
Killing with drilling.

Divide my heart by your words
The quotient is loneliness

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I can visualize it.
I see myself
Standing, gun in hand,
I can feel the tension
Finger against the trigger
I watch as my body
Pummels backward,
Right over that ledge
Into the water
With a silent splash
I sink quietly down
Into the Pacific
Slowly I go,
See the red trail?

Monday, December 6, 2010

I am the master of my destiny
My hand is on the wheel
I decide the turns and stops
It's petrifying
It's exhilarating
I am free
I have no bounds 

Friday, December 3, 2010

Feverishly fearful of failing
Watching words waste away
Buying bottles of bourbon
Drinking down denial
Honesty hidden in hindsight
Recurrent rains reign, relentless
Permeating painful past
Hopeful hues hidden

Thursday, December 2, 2010

When you found the
White album in your attic -
Just sitting there
With your dad's vinyl collection -
How magic that day felt.
Like gold between your fingers
And you didn’t know it's worth
Couldn't realize it
Until we listened 

Wednesday, December 1, 2010