Friends for so long,

closer than anything

so far apart

never really trusted me

never believed in me

never loved me

let me leave my mind

left me behind

in a cold cloud of dust

left me to my coffee and cigarettes

alone and deprived

I sat and wrote a poem

expresses my stolid silence

pretending you cared

made me feel better

unwelcome reality knocked on my door,

threw me off my feet.